Saturday, November 27, 2004
~I've got to let it all out!!!~
Ok...i'm gonna do something very childish here...yes...i'm gonna bitch abt my god-brother! He's not actually my god-bro even! I juz pretend that he is 'cos my parents take him as a godson and he takes my parents as his god-parents! Wat the hell...he doesn't take me as his god-sis too anyway!
I noe it's gonna be really damn childish of me to bitch abt a 7 yr old boy! But i can't take it anymore! I feel like grabbing him and juz shake him till his brain gets fixed!
Imagine a 7 yr old boy shouting and screaming at his dad all the time and even attempts to punch him all the time! Imagine a 7 yr old boy showing a fucked-up attitude face to an old lady juz b'cos she thinks he's cute and talked to him and touched him! Imagine a 7 yr old boy, get a gift, opens it up, proclaim he doesn't like it and insist on taking someone else's gift! Imagine a 7 yr old boy, in front of ur parents act all sweet and nice to u and the moment ur parents back are turn call u names and insults u. Imagine a 7 yr old boy getting a PS2 and instead of saying thank you screams at u telling u dat u din give him a memory card so he can't play games and saved them even if he has the set!
Yes...that's my god-bro!
Such a brat! Come m'on man! My parents are kind enuff to give u that PS2! They dun even give me such expensive gifts for occasions and they gave u one juz b'cos u wan one! I noe I noe...they pity u 'cos u come frm such a dysfunctional family! But so wat...that's not the way to treat their kindness man!
Argh...I'm so frustrated! Firstly b'cos of him and secondly for my parents for having such a soft-spot for him and let him push them around!
I juz feel like slapping him and shout at him till he wakes up his bloody idea! If i did that i dunno wat my parents would do...cos they're rather close to his father too...Argh...for my parents' sake i shall bear with him...at least for now....shall treat him that he's this way 'cos he's young and innocent...but when he reached puberty...I won't noe wat i'll do to him!
I penned @ 10:47 pm
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Thursday, November 11, 2004
~Too bored!~
Oh gosh! (gonna refrain frm using god's name...already used it too much in speech dun wanna make myself more sinful in using it in writings too! lol! Crap!) I'm so so so damn bored! (Am i cussing too much here?? Who cares!) Sooooo bored that I can kill myself!
Ok ok...juz kidding! I'm not suicidal!!! Or at least...not yet...lol! Guess 'cos it's late at nite n i'm cooped up in my little room n bored to death!
Oh well...probably gonna get to bed now! And be up very late in the morning for another boring day! Hope it won't get worse...(although i noe fully well it will)...or i guess i'll juz have to keep meself busy with work!(if there's any...actually there's tons...but oh well...dat's another story for another time! lol! I juz won't change, will I?)
My mind is spinning like mad now...guess it's really time to hit the sheets!
PS: Wonders who will just read the pink wordings...Hmmm....
I penned @ 10:44 pm
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
~I'm juz a kid~
Simple Plan - I'm just a kid
I woke up it was 7
Waited till 11 just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When you're spending everyday on your own
and here it goes
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone
and the world is having more fun than me
And maybe when the night is dead, i'll crawl into my bed
Staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
and here it goes
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone
and the world is having more fun than me
What the fuck is wrong with me?
don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
Cause every night is the worst night ever
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone
and the world is having more fun than me, tonight
I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause i'm just a kid tonight
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Somehow i can totally identify myself with this song nowadays! Although yeah...i'm not a kid anymore...
I penned @ 9:47 pm
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Monday, November 08, 2004
~Layout~
I simply love this layout...somehow i find that it's so "me"....u noe wat i mean? Although many pple are probably using this too...'cos it's not done by me....as well as the paragraph at the table...but i like it soooo much...it's all i ever wanted to say n express but i couldn't 'cos i'm really bad at words....
Decided to get rid of the old blog n start this new one....partly 'cos i find the old one too boring and also b'cos i realised i seemed to be undergoing some changes....dun feel like i'm really myself nowadays....
Is this change gd or bad? I dun really noe.....feeling rather weird n strange nowadays....like i dun really noe myself anymore either....
I penned @ 7:45 pm
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