Thursday, October 27, 2005
~Fun @ Mambo!~
Last night was fun ladies! Never enjoyed Mambo night as much as this before. Usually just go there to see those pple do their synchronize dancing. But last night was madness! Even though, 'cos of the event, mambo did not start until much later and thus lesser songs.
Just loooooove dancing with you gals! Make it so much more enjoyable....with all the dirty dancing....wahahahaha! But please hor, dancing kui dancing...dun make each other zhao kng hor?
I had such a blast despite the vomit on my foot and the jug hitting my forehead (now got red mark there lehz....) Not to forget...seeing you gals getting seh until like that! Wahahaha! Dun feel paiseh lahz......lol
Pssst....YH, tmr gonna be worse lehz....u better prepare urself! Wahahahaha!
I penned @ 8:51 am
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Sunday, October 23, 2005
~Say very sorry.....~
Sorry sorry sorry!
Sorry to spoil your night and your morning too. Sorry to make you worry. Sorry that I'd almost made you cry too. Sorry I told you not to isolate yourself and think but I did it myself.
Sorry for everything!
I know you said not to keep things to myself. But sorry I can't do it. That's how I've been living my whole life. I rather bottle up everything inside myself. I guess that's the reason why you say I'm the "kai xin guo", 'cos I would never show my unhappiness and burden you guys with it.
I know you said that that's what friends are for, to share your burden. But I still rather keep it to myself. To me, it's good enough to know that I have friends like you. You guys are precious!
I'm sorry to show you guys this side of me. Sometimes I think I'm just being stupid. And that's probably the reason I do not say my problems out loud as well. I think I am embarressed of myself even. The more I think it through....the more I would blame myself. It's an internal struggle I'm having with myself.
I think I'm soooooo childish. It's time to knock some senses into myself and grow up. I think I've been living life too "pamperedly". Wishing everything would go smooth, well and in my way. I think I'm hoping for a fantasy life.
It's no longer "Daphne, don't cry." It's "Daphne, wake up! Grow up!"
I hate myself.....................
P.S., Don't worry guys, I'll be fine. Maybe it's just PMS.
I penned @ 8:50 pm
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Friday, October 14, 2005
~Ignorance is bliss?~
I'm upset at this moment. With what, I would not say....it's too personal.
These past few days I've been doing a lot of thinking. I could say every night I am reflecting on what had happened during the day. Am I thinking too much? And is that why I'm getting upset? Am I reading into things too much?
I used to think and reflect a lot as well. Then I realised that I was getting upset way too often. So I choose to close one eye on things and not think too much in order to be happy. I guess ignorance is bliss afterall.....
But now, in this stage of life I'm going through and the things life is throwing at me, I simply cannot not reflect and think. I want to improve my life and achieve big things so I must reflect and ponder on things. In this way, I'm beginning to be too conscious of things happening around me again. Until that I think I'm reading into too much of my surrondings.
Sigh......when can I strike a balance between my thoughts and emotions? I think I'm still letting my emotions rule my thoughts.....
I penned @ 7:31 pm
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
~Inner thoughts~
Something stirred within me,
Something fimiliar but yet so unknown.
My train of thoughts is moving too fast,
I'm finding it hard to breathe.
All the things I have seen, heard and felt,
Are being processed in me.
I have decided,
Decided to let go and be free.
My body, spirit and soul are free and open.
I do not know where this path will lead me,
It might be rough or a bed of roses.
But I have chosen;
I choose to BELIEVE.
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This was something that ran through my mind and what I felt with my heart yesterday. I decided to pen it down in a few simple lines so that it could be understood and yet remain personal.
Since I came back, I think I've changed. I did not notice it, but someone and certain things had pointed it out to me. It's all good.....it's all good.....I really mean it.....
I think the time has come to close one chapter of my life and to open a new one.....
I penned @ 6:59 am
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