Monday, February 21, 2005
~When can I find.....true happiness?~
I think I've figured out where all my unhappiness came from.
I came out with the theory that I'm upset most of the time b'cos I'm upset with myself.
I've been living for almost 21 years but what accomplishments have I made that I'm proud of? I noe u will say I'm still young and still has lots of time and that most pple dun even have much achievements at the age of 40 and blah blah blah...but u have to agree that they have at least one thing they can be proud of! I feel like I have none...
My academic grades ain't fantastic. I'm not gd in sports. I suck at basic human communication skills. I have not been a very gd friend to anyone and dun have truck loads of friends. Hell, I dun even have 10 very gd friends! And the list goes on and on...
I have not even done anything my parents can be proud of! I remember when I was young my parents are really proud of my academic grades (not like they were very great either...) but my grades have been going downhill...no, let me correct that...my grades have dropped down a steep cliff! Well, at least now they can be proud of my bro's grades...which have been the opposite of mine...! For those of u who dunno...my bro is not getting straight As...he's getting straight DISTINCTIONs!
I feel like a bum, garabage, trash, who is place on this earth to waste my parent's and earth's resources...
I dun think I can find true happiness till I'm at peace with myself...
I penned @ 10:09 pm
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