Saturday, May 21, 2005
~Deeply hurt.....~
This is gonna be a long entry...sorry...I just have to bitch!
I've just discovered someone's blog just now......
First thought abt finding it was that it would probably be interesting to read it 'cos that person always fill me in with gossips.
Let's call that person "The Double-headed Snake". 'cos that's what he/she does. so that's probably a plus point in reading his/her blog...well, hypocrites always have juicy news isn't it?
I was reading the archives of The Double-headed Snake and anticipating an entry about me. I know there will be one 'cos The Double-headed Snake simple bitches about everyone except u if it (tired of typing he/she) is bitching to u of 'cos!.
When the entry came I was shocked and deeply hurt after reading it. I've already prepared myself for it 'cos I knew all along it is a double-headed snake but I still got hurt in the end. For those who dunno what is a double-headed snake, it is a term use for someone who is a total hypocrite, does one thing in front of u and acts differently behind.
I almost wanted to cry after reading it but I didn't, guess 'cos i'm sort of mentally prepared already and I thought that it wasn't worth it. And anyway half of the things The Double-headed Snake said wasn't even true anyway. I think some magazines should hire The Double-headed Snake and give it a gossip column to write on 'cos The Double-headed Snake really knows how to exaggerate and juice everything. I admit that if the entry about me wasn't about me but someone else it would be interesting to read!
Well, now I'm actually glad that I had chance upon The Double-Headed Snake's blog. It sort of cleared my head a bit about the issue of "Are your friends really your friends?". I always doubted the "friendship" between me and The Double-Headed Snake anyway but I had somehow convince myself a little that we were friends.
Anyway, that sorted out where I'm really placed didn't it? And it certainly made me treasure my friends now...my true friends! And to think I almost ruin one of my closest friendship with someone b'cos of The Double-Headed Snake...well, it's not toally its fault, there were others involved and I would admit that I'm at fault too. But lucky that "ruined" friendship seems to be healing and getting back on track and when I get back to s'pore I would definately try my best to put the friendship back to where it belongs.
U know what? Suddenly I feel sorry for The Double-Headed Snake. I would say The Double-Headed Snake has loads of friends...well as least they do think they are its friends. But now I wonder who are really its friends? I feel pitiful for The Double-Headed Snake now 'cos I dun think it has many true friends and it will never really experience true friendship. I think the reason why The Double-headed Snake always seem to judge things and have things to say in about almost everything is b'cos it is simply too smart. And I think that might bring about its "down-fall" too 'cos it will never enjoy the experience of having someone just being there and having fun with and not to be judged or to judge.
Sometimes (I would think majority of the time) ignorance really is a bliss isn't it?
I know I will continue being hurt by what was written but I think in the long-run I will think back and say "I know of someone who has hurt me before but I wan to thank her/him for she/he had showed me the true worth of a friend".
I penned @ 8:25 pm
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