Thursday, June 23, 2005
~He ain't heavy, he's my brother (v. long post)~
I just finished watching "A Lot Like Love". Yes, I should be ashame..doing illegal stuff yet again....Anyway, I liked it. It's not that the storyline is really fabulous or anything. But what influenced me wha the songs in it! I love the songs in it!
Shame...the soundtrack does not have the song I love most in the movie, Bon Jovi's I'll be there for you.
I guess this time you're really leaving,
I heard your suitcase say goodbye.
As my broken heart lies bleeding,
You say true love is suicide.
You say you've cried a thousand rivers,
And now you're swimming for the shore.
You left me drowning in my tears,
And you won't save me anymore.
I'm praying to God, for one more chance.
I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you.
I'll be there for you.
I'd live and I'd die for you,
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you.
Words can't say what love can do,
I'll be there for you.
I know you know we've had some good times,
Now they have their own hiding place.
I can promise you tomorrow,
But I can't buy back yesterday.
And baby you know my hands are dirty,
But I wanted to be your Valentine.
I'll be the water if you get thirsty baby.
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine.
I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you.
I'll be there for you.
I'd live and I'd die for you,
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you.
Words can't say what love can do,
I'll be there for you.
I wasn't there when you were happy,
And I wasn't there when you were down.
I didn't mean to miss your birthday,
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out.
I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.
When you breathe, I wanna be the air for you.
I'll be there for you.
I'd live and I'd die for you,
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you.
Words can't say what love can do,
I'll be there for you.
Well, anyway, this wasn't what I really wanna talk about.
I ordered my graduation ceremony gown today. At the same time, I ordered a package for photos as well. I ordered this graduation package which provides 2 family photos as well. Aahhh...but it won't be a complete family 'cos you see my brother won't be coming down.
When it dawned upon me, I suddenly wished my bro would come to my graduation and take the family photo together as well. I wanted him to be in the picture! Yes, I admit, I'm closer to my brother and love him more than I like to admit it.
It's been a year & a half since I last saw him. It's been a long time since I can "fight" and argue with someone. It's been a long time since I had someone I'm always whining and irritating out of.
My brother is a few months short of 5 years older than me. But I remember when I was in secondary school, I talked to one of my classmates about my brother. Something along the line of me having to do something for him. And she thought that I had a younger brother instead of an elder one!
It's true that my bro doesn't really do the role of an elder sibling well. I used to have to wake him up, cook or buy food for him and clean up after him. But he did do all those for me that holiday before he went to melbourne. I was shocked when one day he just went out and came back with lunch for me.
He calls me names. Things like fatso, fat pig, ben zhu. Even now on MSN, he keeps irritating me with this "Ni shi zhu" animated emoticon. But I know he loves me to bits too, in his own way. I know his secret of telling his friends his sis is a chio bu (ok, stop puking guys), what disappointment they will get when they finally sees me.
I've stop calling him "kor kor" a very long time ago. It was due to defiance on my part. When I was 8, I decided to call him by his name b'cos I thought that it was unfair that he got to call me by my name while I had to call him "kor kor". I want to start calling him "kor kor" again, 'cos it's so loving don't you think so? Maybe those of you who are used to it won't think so but it is.
I would say I'm closer to my bro than to my parents. This would be b'cos I'm always the first one to realise his secrets and he would be the first to realise mine (though I think he knows less of my secrets than I know his and I take a shorter time to find out about his). The irritating thing is, I never tell on his secrets but he always tells on mine! That's how I know he knows my secrets and that's how I know that I know more of his secrets than he knows! Haha!
One thing I love about my bro is that he's "generous". No, he does not shower me with presents. It's a different kind of generosity. Let me explain. You see, I think I'm the kind of sibling every sibling loves to hate. Why? B'cos of my dad. I'm the apple of his eye...like I said before, he gives me almost everything I want.
What to do? I'm a girl, "there"-ing my father is easier mahz. B'cos of that, there's lots of thing my bro can be jealous and hate me for. For example, my bro's pager, 1st handphone and driving lessons were paid out of his own pockets. Mine? Yes, you've guessed it, my darling daddy paid them.
My bro may be a little jealous at times but he does not hate me or get angry at me. In fact, sometimes, he put it to his advantage. For example, getting a PS2. He wants one and he asked me to ask my dad for one. "Why me?", I whined at him, "You are the one who wants it and will play with it most of the time." "B'cos you are daddy's girl", he said.
Nope, I didn't ask dad for one....at least not right away. In the meantime, he pestered my dad for one and try to entice me with the games I could play. Dad still not giving in, I gave in (he can whine too you know!) Together we pester dad...ah...he's softening. But let me tell you one thing about my dad too, he can be a miser. He did not agree to get it until me and bro suggest that he get it as a combine x'mas present for the both of us. So he got it, but he didn't pay a single cent. Haha! But that's another issue and I can't remember if bro and I still manage to get x'mas presents claiming that he got it free so it didn't count. Haha!
Gosh, I do miss my bro! With our fighting childhood and getting closer when we're both in our teens. The times I lied on his bed and fell asleep while waiting for him to finish playing games on the computer so I could use it. Waking up to find that he had off the computer and went to sleep...on my bed!
Those were the times.....
I penned @ 11:18 pm
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